Sunday, November 09, 2008 ~Mahallah Uthman, IIUM Gombak campus.
Assalamualaikum w.b.t
Wednesday, Nov 05, 0912 -
Ziarah kawan sakit kat hospital Selayang. His condition in agony state. Crushed in an accident at KM2, Lebuhraya Kesas if I'm not mistaken. Kawan lama yet our relationship still strong. Got this news from another friend of mine.
While at hospital's lobbyroom, I was talked with some of his relatives about him. How did he get such a terrible accident. One of them told me that this guy was deserved for all of this and when I asked them why, the reason is he drove at 140km/h and failed to control his motorcycle before hit the road divider and struck with another car coming in front at the opposite way. Pity on him. But, I do recognize him very much. We've been friend for long time. I know his from secondary school when we were studying together at MML...or ada sape2 dak2 MML yg kenal dia, zamisham, budak aliran sastera iktisas.., asal Pasir Hor tp menetap di KL. His habit is to race at busy road. But not at the calm road. He always told me that he want challenge and how he gonna get his satisfaction is by driving at crazy speed in the middle of the busy road. Such a very frantic and weird habit one of my friends ever had. But now....wallahu'alam
(I'm not praying for his dies, but looking at his condition and if only I can talk freely I wanna say it's much better for him to 'go' rather than suffer a lot like that).
Friday, Nov 07, 2212.
I was wondering while people act strangely or even dangerously only because they wanna get satisfaction or chasing happiness. What kinda of satisfaction this? I dont really understand why this can happen. If you guys say that we dont have faith/ iman inside of us then in this case I dont believe it because I know my friend more than you are. We ever been a close friend long time ago. As far as I know and concern him, he has strong faith in his heart. This is not his nature. But, episode turned tragedy when he and his brother had an accident 8 years ago and bacause of that, his brother died. He really felt guilty and strongly believed that the accident was happened bacause he was not good at driving and because he was too afraid in the congestion road after having a trauma of past accident and since that date he hate so much of being afraid and dont want to be afraid anymore and tried to get rid of this by doing this fucking crazy remedy. He also believed that's the only way he can heal his soul and wanna redeem '
revenge' his past fault. He totally changed after that tragedy.
Humans have long engaged in a debate of nature versus nurture, a dilemma with undertones of fate versus freewill. Are you the person you are because you were born that way or because of the world in which you've been brought up?